Ugh, seven weeks, and some things are still a struggle.
Lessons: The “What Should You Be Working On” spreadsheet really smoothed things over in third grade lessons. That was good, because all next week we’re going to be working on an AIR Test practice prompt that my principal and I planned together. We’re hoping that it provides teachers (including me) with a sense of how to help students succeed on the AIR test. We’re trying to get a sense of things like how kids manage their time, if they type quickly enough on the keyboards, and whether or not they plan their writing. I’m weirdly both looking forward to it and dreading it. I’m looking forward to it because I think it will be interesting to see how kids do, and I think we’ve done a good job preparing for this activity. I’m dreading it because I’m afraid the results will indicate we have a lot — a lot — of work to do. Maybe they won’t, though. That remains to be seen.
Support: At one point, a coworker asked me to fix the printers or call the company for help. I, er, never did that. I couldn’t get away from the lab — I had a student pre-testing. Ultimately, the principal fixed one of the machines herself (yay!), and the other started working on its own, mysteriously. By “mysteriously,” I mean someone else probably troubleshooted it. Whoever did, good job! I know that’s a big part of my job, but unfortunately it’s not a part I can drop everything else to do.
Things I Did Well: I think I’ve made some positive improvements to our method of doing the morning announcements.
Things I Will Do Better: I made those positive improvements to our method of doing the morning announcements because there were things not working about how we do the morning announcements. Ultimately, it comes down to (a) time management and (b) attention to detail, which I will focus on especially in the coming days and weeks. And in more areas than just morning announcements, too!
Cold Prickly: Last year, a parent posted something uncharitable about me on Facebook. It was also not specific, so when I saw it, I had no idea what I had done wrong or what I could do better. I told my principal about it, and she called the parent to discuss it but I’m not sure they ever got past the voicemail stage of communication. I am not actually connected to this parent on social media; someone else took a screenshot and sent it to me. So I’m not sure this parent even knows that I know what she said about me on social media.
Anyway, I haven’t actually had much to do with that family for several months now; I no longer have that student in class. But I saw them today at the school carnival. The parent took a video of me and her child dancing together. I feel uncomfortable. I feel uncomfortable because I don’t know now how that parent feels about me — maybe the uncharitable post was just coming from a need to vent. I don’t know whether she actually had negative feelings about me and changed them. I don’t know how her child feels about me, not for sure. But I didn’t want to bring up these negative feelings and bad memories at a fun carnival event. But I also don’t want to go back and revisit the event any more. I spent more time than I should have thinking about it in the days and weeks immediately following, like when your tongue just can’t leave that sore spot in your gums alone. I don’t want to repeat that cycle. But I feel discomfited, and I really wish I didn’t.
Warm Fuzzy: I was tickled by the name for this basket at the carnival’s basket raffle. Why not reference Shakespeare’s Hamlet at a carnival for first, second, and third graders?